Songs that have shaped me

I thought that I would make a list of songs that have completely changed my life. I know it’s corny but I feel I need to express my gratitude to these amazing singers and songwriters. I will first give the Artist’s name, then the title of the song and then my favourite lyric.

And so it begins…


Ed Sheeran-

Bloodstream – ‘I saw scars upon a broken-hearted lover.’

Shirtsleeves – ‘I’m drowning in the oceans you’ve made.’

Even my Dad does sometimes – ‘It’s alright to cry, even my Dad does sometimes’.

Sunburn – ‘You scared and left me like a sunburn.’

Give me love – ‘Paint splattered tear drops’.


Taylor Swift-

I know places – ‘They are hunters, we are the foxes and we run’.

Clean – ‘Still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can’t wear anymore’.  ‘When the flowers we had grown together died of thirst’.

White Horse – ‘There in my rear-view mirror, disappearing now.’

Sad beautiful tragic – ‘Time is taking its sweet time erasing you.’

The lucky one – ‘Young things lined up to take your place.’


Fall Out Boy-

My song’s know what you did in the dark – ‘My childhood spat out the monster that you see’.

Save Rock and Roll – ‘Only came here to save Rock and Roll’.

Just one yesterday – ‘Anything you say can and will be held against you’.

Centuries – ‘You’re my cherry blossom, you’re about to bloom, you look so pretty but you’re gone so soon.’



Yellow Flicker Beat – ‘They used to shout my name, now they whisper it’.


Cat Power-

Sea of Love – ‘I want to tell you, how much I love you’.


Eminem and Sia-

Guts over fear – ‘No wonder I had to unlearn everything my brain was taught’.   ‘And it just breaks my heart to look at all the pain I’ve caused.’



Take me to Church – ‘She’s the giggle at a funeral.’


George Ezra-

Did you hear the rain?– ‘Lucifer’s inside.’


Bring me the Horizon-

Empire (let them sing) – ‘Surrounded by vicious cycles.’  ‘They came like moths to a flame’.


You me at Six-

Crash – ‘A meaningless routine. It’s meaningless to me’.


Brand New-

The boy who blocked his own shot –  ‘Holding onto your grudge.’   ‘You can’t keep a secret if it never was a secret to start.’     ‘At least pretend you didn’t want to get caught’.



Chandelier – ‘I’m going to swing from the chandelier.’



All I want – ‘But if you loved me, why’d you leave me?’


Les Miserables-

Empty chairs at empty tables – ‘ Oh my friends, my friends, forgive me, that I live and you are gone’.


Real Friends-

Hebron – ‘I was dead weight, pulling you down.’

I’ve given up on you – ‘It still hurts to know you’re not alone.’


Jack White-

Love is blindness – ‘Wrap the night around me’.       ‘Too numb to feel.’


Dr Dre, Eminem and Skylar Grey

I need a doctor – ‘I owe my life to you.’      ‘ I don’t think you realize what you mean to me.’       I can endure no more I demand you remember who you are.’        ‘It was YOU, who believed in me.’         ‘You saved my life, now maybe it’s my turn to save yours.’



Kim – ‘I hate you, I hate you, I swear to God I hate you…Oh my God I love you’.    ‘You were supposed to love me’.



Sail – ‘Maybe I’m a different breed’.  


Eminem and Nate Ruess-

Headlights – ‘Mum, I know I let you down.’


Miley Cyrus and French Montana-

FU – ‘I’ve got two letters for you.’


Lady Gaga-

Gypsy – ‘I left everyone I love at home’.


Linkin Park-

Numb – ‘Tired of being what you want me to be.’        ‘Can’t you see that you’re smothering me?!’


James Arthur-

Recovery – ‘Like rain on a Monday morning’.








Looking at who’s pointing the finger…

Hi everyone,

*turns down George Ezra’s new album*

I have just been watching the new Victoria’s Secret model catwalk that aired this year (2014). In my YouTube suggestions box I see loads of short clips of women talking about how the models are portrayed and what their aims are and where their morals lie. Obviously, I dive into the rabbit hole (I’m a sucker for reality shows…I know…) and I tell you, I was a little overwhelmed. Understatement of the year, well done Lotts, I was stunned at what I found.

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Now these are the Victoria’s Secret models so, of course, they are going to be the skinniest girls you have EVER SEEN. I have seen starving children with more fat of them. Surely being this skinny is going to far. When you look at them, really look at them, you start to notice things, rib cages on show and chest bones protruding out from under their necks. To me, they don’t look healthy, they look undernourished and not desirable. I know I am a girl so, as I don’t look at them sexually, I can’t say if they are attractive but I think that society and the eyes of the media have distorted the image of beauty. If beauty is about having the widest thigh gap and looking like I haven’t eaten in a week then, I’m sorry, but I don’t part-take. You’re just following the orders of the media. We are supposed to be free to do whatever we want! Yet we seem to constantly follow rules from people we don’t even know!

Now I know that if you are in the media’s eye, if you have luckily (or unluckily, depending on perspective) taken centre stage in front of the whole world of course you are going to get…feedback. I’ll call it feedback. But when it gets to a certain extent where you can see the person you are giving ‘feedback’ to is being affected by it THEN YOU STOP.

Countless celebrities have been the targets of this unnecessary ‘feedback’ and I know that in my short life I have only touched the surface of it but I just don’t understand.

Jennifer Lawrence is considered ‘a fat actress’ in Hollywood standards this due to the fact she speaks openly about eating burgers and McDonalds and gorging. She has repeatedly said that she would never lose weight for a role and that she is comfortable the way she looks. I’m sorry but I don’t understand Hollywood and, I admit, I’m relieved I don’t live in that kind of society where first glances determine someone’s worth and if they’re to be accepted.

You can see in this picture of Jennifer Lawrence herself that on the left is what she actually looks like. Healthy and curvy and, in my standards, a slim, petite woman. Now to the right is the same picture, only it’s edited. They have slimmed her neck, narrowed her hips and legs, reshaped her stomach and changed the shape of her shoulders and arms. They have also managed to CHANGE THE SHAPE OF HER FACE! No wonder no one can be societies version of ‘perfect’ as you will always be edited in some odd way.

Jennifer has opened up to this picture and said that she was disgusted. She told a reporter ‘I eat like a caveman. I’ll be the only actress who doesn’t have anorexia rumours.’

However, Miss Jennifer is not the only one. ( blurts Sam Smith’s I know I’m not the only one…No, okay…)

Hundreds of women have been affected by the words of media and being in the public eye. However the sheer progression has been shown on a few. Beautiful women like Lindsey Lohan, the Olsen twins and Amanda Bynes. All these women were in the public eye as being ‘hot’ or ‘fit’ and they felt they had to live up to the title.

I feel that, maybe, celebrities go down this very narrow road of self-harm as it’s the only thing in their lives that they can control. They can’t control what goes on around them so they turn inwards and work on their appearance as without that they feel they have nothing. And if the eyes of the public don’t notice they’ll work harder.

Women should not been seen as sex objects but saying that changes nothing. But I hope I’m at least a tiny ripple in the pond as ripples can only spread.  I know there is always going to be attraction to good looking people as that’s just the human race and our weird hormones. But when it gets to the extent where the women feel that they need to live up to these impossible standards that’s when it needs to stop. There’s always a time that we need to fall apart, and I think that’s a good thing. We’re always going to have off-days. Days where we look a little less than glamorous but we’re only human. It’s natural to have a bad day. If you haven’t experienced one or experienced something that had angered you or put you in a bad mood than where is your emotion. Humans rely upon it heavily to show how they are feeling. And sometimes we don’t always feel great and this should be expressed.  I believe that bottling up feelings only hurts yourself. Expression and emotion are the only thing human’s have that differentiates us from a rock! We need to be open and understand that words hurt. Comments that you don’t even think about can change a person. Making them see themselves as this kind of monster, constantly running from something but having no idea what that something is.


On completely another note I am going to try and do a blog post a week. Now I’m not promising anything as I have severe commitment issues but still, I will try! I hope, wherever you are in the world you have had a good day but if not there is always tomorrow. A fresh start.

Signing off…